Tonight is a hard night. This is Kat. I am really feeling depressed. I don't know why...maybe it's because I have had this damn awful burning in my throat from not eating. I tried to eat little bits through out the day but it still hurts.
It could be a mood swing. No need for reasons with those. I am here alone for a bit tonight but, that does not bother me.
I met with my best friend yesterday. We each drove 2 hours to see each other. We do it every 6 months. She is great and very uplifting. She does not know about the DID. I know she is my best friend and she knows almost everything about me but not that. I am afraid she just would not understand. I have actually lost a friend when she was afraid I had a "serial killer" inside and didn't want to risk it. It was silly. She had a phobia of serial killers and I think she saw the Evil One come out once. That was enough to scare anyone away.
Shit I am just feeling badly tonight. I NEVER cry and yet here I go. I hate to cry. I just feel like shit. I think Littlebit wants out and I am busy with computer stuff. She will have to have her time tonight.
I really did hate losing that friend. She was like Mariah...intuitive like that. She and I had different temperaments but, I thought we were good together...as friends. Anyway, just had to write. I will feel better later.
Kat
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