Hidden Helen

This is very hard for me to write about.  It is very hard for any of us to write about.  It is very hard for any of us to think about.  The core Helen is so damaged that she is hidden far inside the psyche where no one can ever reach her or get to her to do any amount of damage.  She is guarded by the Old One who first came to Helen way before Helen was incarnated into this body.  Helen had chosen the life that she was to have and it was arranged that she was to have a Helper to stand by her to make sure she stayed safe when she regressed and could not take care of herself.I feel such sadness as I type this.  My poor Helen.  That she would have to do this in order to survive.  Many little ones came to take over because Helen just could not fathom what was going on in front of her eyes.  Her soul could not bear it.When did Mariah come?  Is that why she can deal with such paranormal things...things that she does not even know she can deal with yet?  I feel so sad as I write this...so sad.  My grief envelops me.  It threatens to take me out to sea and drown me.  But others remind me that these are just feelings and they can't hurt me.  It is what I do with them.  They can make me strong.  The Old One will be here to make the feelings go away if they start to influence Helen.  It guards her.  I can't say anymore for now  It is enough.  This is Mariah