I can't sleep again tonight because of a headache.  I have taken enough meds to knock the shit out of it.  But still it persists.  I go see Lisa tomorrow and I am going to discuss with her how distressed Leah, Angela, and I are about not losing weight.  I have to eat between 600 - 700 to see a weight change.  Then I feel sick all the time.  I am so discouraged.  I need to start exercising but without the fuel it is very hard to do it.  Many years ago I would have done it anyway.  This body is not as young as it was when we had the ED before so many years ago.  I will continue to try.

I'd love to hear from you all.

Nov. and Dec...Hard

This is Kat.  This month and last month has been hard.  I had to switch my meds again and the new meds caused blurred vision, a weak bladder, and a 5 pound gain.  I quickly stop taking that but the 5 lbs. have not gone away.  While I am on this cancer med it is very hard for me to lose.  My therapist is so busy that I sometimes can't get into see her when I need to.  I know these meds help and make my life livable but it sometimes feels like I am not in control.

The eating thing is still the same.  Been trying to eat a few more nuts because of the good fat and protein.

Been very tired lately.  Not sleeping well at nights and then still tired during the day.  This could be due to anything from medication to Fibro.  So I have no clue.  I need to go to bed now.  

Nite,
Kat