Can't Sleep

I am Kat.  Tonight is another one of those nights I can't sleep.  I, actually, use this blog to vent and then hope it allows me to sleep.  I can't sleep because I am hungry and because my mind won't stop working.  I only had 600 cals today and that equals hunger.  Can't eat.  I had my allotted food.  I am drinking a decaf Diet Pepsi.

I had to make a new blog tonight because my old blog that was really new got connected to my business blog account.  I want to keep those two separately.

I am going back on Abilify because the 8 pounds I thought I gained from the Abilify is not coming off when I quit it.  The Abilify makes me feel better than Zoloft.  I am so tired of taking all these pills.  It is never ending.  Sometimes I wish I were dead because I have so much shit to deal.  But you know what?  I also have lots of good things.  Things that I don't want to leave.  I would effect others if I were not here.  I would effect my dogs and cat.  Suicide is a very selfish act.  Second thought, I am glad I am here.  I just get really tired sometime.

Anyone reading this?  Leave comments please.