Living Inside

I am Mariah.  I still find it odd when I am trying to go somewhere in the house and find myself in another room.  I talked to my therapist about the possibility of ADD and she said she had not seen any indications that I would have ADD.  She said that we all have some characteristics of different diagnosis.  I am thinking it is just a switch that occurs.  I will be trying to get into the kitchen to get food and I will find myself in the office.  Today, I have been trying to read a book and I keep finding myself doing something else.  It can be really annoying.  So many parts of us that want to have outside time.  They want to be in the "spotlight".  

That is how it is inside...We all sit or stand around the spotlight and when we need to come out, we step into the light. When we are not in the light we have co-consciousness.  That means that we can sense what is going on on the outside. Sometimes, when one of us is having a flashback, there is a wall up and we can't get into the light.  Sometimes, if there is something that could be triggering going on on the outside and we can't let the kids see it or come out, the kids go into "the dome".  This is a comfy place where the kids can't sense what is going on on the outside.  There is also a "playhouse" that the kids can go to when they don't want to come out.  It is not really a play house but a nice room where they can be.  It used to be a playhouse until they grew up a bit.  Also, the Evil One is far far back in the jungle with our Black Panther.  The Black Panther is our Power Animal.  Power Animals are helpers.  He is not part of us but rather something spiritual that I created during a Shamanic journey.  I didn't really create him...he came.  I think he is one of our Guides in animal form.  He ministers to the Evil One.  Her life has been hard and she had to do really horrible things.  She did it to protect us.  The Evil One is a hero.  We love her.