POSSIBLE TRIGGERING

POSSIBLE TRIGGERING 

I am Kat.  I am afraid people are going to see Littlebit's post and not believe me.  I am afraid they are going to think it is dumb and I am making it all up.

I am really disappointed.  We were suppose to go to the haunted house Delusion but, decided that it might be too triggering for the Evil One.  When she is physically threatened she comes out and defends the body.  I have had lots of martial arts training and she knows how to defend herself.  More to the point she has been waiting our whole life to defend herself.  We never got to defend ourselves during the abuse.  She is set up to do that now if we need her.  In this very scary Delusion there would be people touching me. She would not know that it is fantasy.  We would have to tell her that this is fantasy and not to come out.  This could cause confusion if she ever had to come out and defend us.  Plus it would be very unfair to her.  I am just really disappointed.

Littlebit was triggered the other night.  I was watching a show that showed a baby watching as someone was repeatedly stabbing someone.  Littlebit was out and started patting her eyes like she does when she is getting "pictures" or memories.  She said, "Little kids shouldn't see it" and "OH NO!" repeatedly.  She started making groans.  She went to bed and Chopper, our wonderful dog, laid by her.  She was able to touch him and that comforted her.  Our husband and good friend started reminding her that we have a grown up body now and the 'bad guys' can't get us.  They won't know us.  He asked if he could hug her.  She said yes.  These flashbacks don't last long anymore and soon she was okay.  I hate when this happens.  I feel bad for everyone inside.  It reminds me of how hurt I was.  I am angry and hurt.  Sometime I just feel so helpless.